Sometimes it really bugs me how a lot of the people I follow here are doing great with all their hormone stuff, fairly early in their lives too.

While I just sit here, turned 18 over a month ago, and I still have to find a therapist. The last one I had told me he didn’t think I was trans. I was ‘too ambivalent’ about it. So I dropped him.

But now I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to say I want to kill myself, but death sounds nice the way things are going.